Phases

I've always had a very strange tendency to categorize past periods of times in my life by color. I think I have explained this in a post here before but it requires too much effort to go filter through the old content to find out. In short, I have almost a feeling or sense of color affiliated with each year or time period of my life. The memories have this tint or shade to them, without actually having it. I don't know. It's very odd. I don't think it's a normal habit.

Anyways, the "vibes" for each time period operate in a fashion similar to the siren of a fire truck. The most strong feelings are from memories that are very recent or were a very long time ago. The least impactful vibes are from memories in between, and eventually at a middle point they just aren't really there - to an extent. They still have an obvious color and such but I don't feel the emotional trigger in the same way I normally do. This leads me to believe that my person at the present time is most heavily influenced by recent events and earlier years of life. Perhaps this has all been stated by someone who is trained in understanding these concepts of life, but I'll just pretend like I'm the first to think that. This also brings up the sad fact that at some point, the present will be insignificant - as it does not qualify as an early year of my life and one day won't be recent.

Time is a strange thing to think about. They say that everything has all happened at once and time is just the method our brain uses to comprehend everything. It is but another dimension. This means that in a sense your 2 year old grandma is existing as the same time as your 75 year old daughter. The sheer concept of that - of all those people converging into one exact point - gives me goosebumps. It really provides a new perspective on how little we are, and how simple things are for us.

I had much more to write but the hour is getting late and I have to be up relatively early tomorrow. I will add more to this at a later date. Thanks for reading.

-Umar