I have been getting really lost in conversation while talking to some friends about music, one of them suggested I post some of the stuff I've been listening to every once in a while.
I made sure not to repeat any artists, hope you liked at least one of the songs!
- Umar
Wednesday, May 6, 2015
Reader Request: Love
You have no idea how much time I wasted to find a picture of these toys.
Love is a topic that comes up in my posts very often but I have failed to write a post about my thoughts on it as a standalone subject. A friend recently messaged me and their request for one of my posts was the topic of Love - so here we are.
Love is something that people all acknowledge and identify to exist, but not always in the same form. Most people assume love is being discussed in regards to an intimate love shared only with those you label as your soul mate. Love comes in a variety of shapes and forms, one example is the way you love a pet; dogs are beloved by most but in more of a innocent and cute way.
Hobbies and interests are a form of love possessed by most people, and it is commonly seen on the social media. It is the feeling that you get when you are part of a team. It happens when you find something you can turn hours into second doing, this can be art, sports, reading, or really anything that inspires you. Inspirational Love.
Another way, and often the most underrated way is the friendly love you share with your friends and family. It is an emotional attachment that forces you to help them even when you know you shouldn't, just because you would do anything to keep them safe and out of trouble - the same feeling that presses you to buy them gifts or make big deals out of their birthdays, the feeling that makes you spam their facebook page with inside jokes that lead everyone else to think you are weird. And the beautiful part about this kind of love is that even with everyone else thinking you look silly you don't care. The people that care are the people who don't value you enough to deserve knowing about those inside jokes. Familial Love.
Now for the part on the love that tends to actually interest people: romantic love. It is a feeling that can put someone at the top of the world or ruin their life, and most times both. I have seen high schoolers more loyal and in love than adults - thought most times at ages that young it is just infatuation. If it is pure you will know. I hear people told it's not "real" love far too often and the people telling it are only the one's who have had bad experiences with love. I'm not entirely sure that I agree people can't be sure what love is just because they are young. If loves truly knows no boundaries then logic would dictate that age is no restriction. If a child can understand that they are happy, or sad, or angry then why would they not be able to grasp the concept of love? Love isn't just a word that creates and awkward or meaningful moment, it's a word that carries power - power that is frequently disregarded. It is the feeling that makes the world melt around you and fall into a hushed audience spectating the bittersweet moment you are living. It is a passion so powerful that your brain photocopies everything about it in a perfect frame by frame; only for you to look back and wonder about if each and any detail had been different. It will always be the end to the seemingly endless tunnels of thoughts residing in your brain, and no matter what you do to reach a different destination you will always end up at the same point. It is what will make you trade hours of hard times for a few seconds of time with them. It is the goosebumps, the butterflies, the lightheadedness. It is the first thing you think of each day when you wake up, and the last thing you think of before you fall asleep. It gives you someone to share everything with, the world is your playground. It is both a blessing and a curse simply because you will never be able to escape it. It is the purest and darkest of emotions. It is what will keep you restless at night and trapped within your mind the entire day. It is the vice-grip that clenches around your chest tighter every time you are reminded of it until you can't feel anything anymore. It is what sends you into the darkest depths of the mind searching for an escape, but you just become more lost deep within. Romantic Love.
I don't believe in love at first sight, but I do believe in instinct and hunch. I think people can know if they CAN love someone pretty early into knowing that person. This also relates to my belief that it is possible to love more than one person, it would be incredibly cruel for the universe to only provide one true candidate for your life partner.... but then again - the universe really sucks sometimes.
Also, there is a cheesy quote that totally applies; it goes something like: "Don't be sad because it's over, be thankful because it happened" -Justgirlythings or something cliche like that. It is true, if you dwell on it, it will only hurt more. It ended for a reason. A good friend of mine once compared love to a childrens toy, you know the one where you just put a block in the hole it is shaped like? He said "You can't force a square block through a triangle hole (assuming they are proportionally similar)".
Just remember, you lose every chance you don't take.
-Umar
P.S. This post was a bit challenging for me because I wasn't too sure what the request was asking for exactly, I hope this post will suffice. I love all of you guys.
Tuesday, May 5, 2015
Some Quotes
Recently I was discussing quotes with someone and it has inspired me to post some of the best quotes ever...
"Just because she likes the same bizzaro crap you do doesn't mean she's your soul mate."
- 500 Days of Summer
"People should be able to say how they feel - how they really feel - not, you know, some words that some strangers put in their mouths."
- 500 Days of Summer
"People don't realize this, but loneliness is underrated."
- 500 Days of Summer
"This is lies. We are liars. Think about it. Why do people buy cards? It's not because they want to say how they feel. People buy cards because they can't say they feel or are afraid to. And we provide the service that let's them off the hook. You know what? I say to hell with it. Let's level with America. Or at least let them speak for themselves. Right?"
- 500 Days of Summer
"We accept the love we think we deserve."
- Perks of Being a Wallflower
"I am very interested and fascinated how everyone loves each other, but no one really likes each other."
- Perks of Being a Wallflower
"It's strange because sometimes, I read a book, and I think I am the people in the book."
- Perks of Being a Wallflower
"I am both happy and sad at the same time, and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be."
- Perks of Being a Wallflower
"I read somewhere... how important it is in life not necessarily to be strong, but to feel strong... to measure yourself at least once."
- Into the Wild
"The core of mans' spirit comes from new experiences."
- Into the Wild
"You are wrong if you think Joy emanates only or principally from human relationships. God has placed it all around us. It is in everything and anything we might experience. We just have to have the courage to turn against our habitual lifestyle and engage in unconventional living."
- Into the Wild
"Nothing is more damaging to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man’s living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun."
- Into the Wild
"At long last he was unencumbered, emancipated from the stifling world of his parents and peers, a world of abstraction and security and material excess, a world in which he felt grievously cut off from the raw throb of existence."
- Into the Wild
"I always think of each night as a song. Or each moment as a song. But now I'm seeing we don't live in a single song. We move from song to song, from lyric to lyric, from chord to chord. There is no ending here. It's an infinite playlist."
- Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist
"Answer all the questions that I'm too afraid to ask"
- Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist
"Perhaps it's not that I'm frigid-- it's that once I decide I like a person, I turn into a raging idiot, unfit for public appearances."
- Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist
"I have found that people who can successfully resist temptation invariably lead depressingly stunted lives."
- Youth in Revolt
"In the movies the good guy gets the girl. In real life it's usually the prick."
- Youth in Revolt
"Because nothing sucks more than being all alone.. no matter how many people are around."
- Scrubs
"If I had the choice of hanging out with anyone in the entire world or sitting at home with you eating pizza watching a crappy tv show. I'd choose you every time."
- Scrubs
"Oh yes, the past can hurt. But you can either run from it, or learn from it. "
- The Lion King
"Hey. Don't ever let somebody tell you... You can't do something. Not even me. All right?...You got a dream... You gotta protect it. People can't do somethin' themselves, they wanna tell you you can't do it. If you want somethin', go get it. Period."
- The Pursuit of Happiness
"When I'm around you, I kind of feel like I'm on drugs. Not that I do drugs. Unless you do drugs, in which case I do them all the time. All of them."
- Scott Pilgrim vs The World
"I know you play mysterious and aloof just to avoid getting hurt. And I know you have reasons for not wanting talk about your past. I want you to know that I don't care about any of that stuff. Because I'm in lesbians with you."
-Scott Pilgrim vs The World
"This famous linguist once said that of all the phrases in the English language, of all the endless combinations of words in all of history, that "cellar door" is the most beautiful."
- Donnie Darko
"Just because she likes the same bizzaro crap you do doesn't mean she's your soul mate."
- 500 Days of Summer
"People should be able to say how they feel - how they really feel - not, you know, some words that some strangers put in their mouths."
- 500 Days of Summer
"People don't realize this, but loneliness is underrated."
- 500 Days of Summer
"This is lies. We are liars. Think about it. Why do people buy cards? It's not because they want to say how they feel. People buy cards because they can't say they feel or are afraid to. And we provide the service that let's them off the hook. You know what? I say to hell with it. Let's level with America. Or at least let them speak for themselves. Right?"
- 500 Days of Summer
"We accept the love we think we deserve."
- Perks of Being a Wallflower
"I am very interested and fascinated how everyone loves each other, but no one really likes each other."
- Perks of Being a Wallflower
"It's strange because sometimes, I read a book, and I think I am the people in the book."
- Perks of Being a Wallflower
"I am both happy and sad at the same time, and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be."
- Perks of Being a Wallflower
"I read somewhere... how important it is in life not necessarily to be strong, but to feel strong... to measure yourself at least once."
- Into the Wild
"The core of mans' spirit comes from new experiences."
- Into the Wild
"You are wrong if you think Joy emanates only or principally from human relationships. God has placed it all around us. It is in everything and anything we might experience. We just have to have the courage to turn against our habitual lifestyle and engage in unconventional living."
- Into the Wild
"Nothing is more damaging to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man’s living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun."
- Into the Wild
"At long last he was unencumbered, emancipated from the stifling world of his parents and peers, a world of abstraction and security and material excess, a world in which he felt grievously cut off from the raw throb of existence."
- Into the Wild
"I always think of each night as a song. Or each moment as a song. But now I'm seeing we don't live in a single song. We move from song to song, from lyric to lyric, from chord to chord. There is no ending here. It's an infinite playlist."
- Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist
"Answer all the questions that I'm too afraid to ask"
- Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist
"Perhaps it's not that I'm frigid-- it's that once I decide I like a person, I turn into a raging idiot, unfit for public appearances."
- Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist
"I have found that people who can successfully resist temptation invariably lead depressingly stunted lives."
- Youth in Revolt
"In the movies the good guy gets the girl. In real life it's usually the prick."
- Youth in Revolt
"Because nothing sucks more than being all alone.. no matter how many people are around."
- Scrubs
"If I had the choice of hanging out with anyone in the entire world or sitting at home with you eating pizza watching a crappy tv show. I'd choose you every time."
- Scrubs
"Oh yes, the past can hurt. But you can either run from it, or learn from it. "
- The Lion King
"Hey. Don't ever let somebody tell you... You can't do something. Not even me. All right?...You got a dream... You gotta protect it. People can't do somethin' themselves, they wanna tell you you can't do it. If you want somethin', go get it. Period."
- The Pursuit of Happiness
"When I'm around you, I kind of feel like I'm on drugs. Not that I do drugs. Unless you do drugs, in which case I do them all the time. All of them."
- Scott Pilgrim vs The World
"I know you play mysterious and aloof just to avoid getting hurt. And I know you have reasons for not wanting talk about your past. I want you to know that I don't care about any of that stuff. Because I'm in lesbians with you."
-Scott Pilgrim vs The World
"This famous linguist once said that of all the phrases in the English language, of all the endless combinations of words in all of history, that "cellar door" is the most beautiful."
- Donnie Darko
Sunday, May 3, 2015
Occam's Razor
Occam's offer a closer shave than any other razor on the market.
I am about to finish my first year of college.
Each time I say that I can not help to think about how quickly everything went by, how different I wish some things would've been, and how perfect some other things were. Initially I thought about how fast it went by when compared to a year of school from when I younger; the year from my youth felt so much longer. During my latest peaceful pondering I had figured out why time goes faster as you get older.
I felt that perhaps a day felt longer when you were young because it was a larger part of your life, for example: A day to a 6 year-old is 1/2190th of their life on earth, assuming they are exactly 6 years old. Whereas for an 18 year-old it is 1/6570th of their life - while figuring out these numbers I thought it made sense until I figured out that this is going to suggest that a day for a 6 year-old feels 3 times longer than a day to an 18 year-old. Which.... does not seem accurate in the slightest.
Like most things I am likely over-thinking the entire concept and counting variables that don't exist, while leaving out others that do. There is occam's razor with which people have identified as a principle claiming that when there are multiple equally likely hypotheses being tested against one another, the one with the fewest assumptions should be the one chosen. In simpler terms, the less complicated answer is the right one. Following the principle my entire post should be discredited entirely.... but that leaves me with less silly things to think about.
TL;DR of this post: I have a theory that time goes faster due to the amount being a smaller portion of the whole, however, I have nothing but personal experience to support the idea. Occam's razor is cool.
-Umar
Sunday, April 19, 2015
Pretty Face
Faith for the conclusion in the greatest story of all, but hopelessness for it's fruition.
Saturday, April 18, 2015
Why?
The moment when one stops to ask "why?" is one of the most pivotal - yet dangerous moments in their life.
Monday, January 12, 2015
Perseverance
The influence of the individual is an amazing thing. There are people I have met in my life that have blown my mind away in every way possible. These people introduced me to theories, thoughts, habits, and objects that changed my life forever. I have all of you to thank for my rebirth.
I believe that everything happens for a reason and even though things get bad it pays off to tough it out. Through fire comes steel. It's just a matter of lasting through the fire. Not long ago I was hit head on by several life changing events. Following these events I had various thoughts and opinions - these were not good thoughts and opinions. I suffered from anxiety attacks, lost most my friends, and hated myself. Many times I thought about calling it quits and succumbing to all the emotions flooding my mind. Emotions so strong that you could feel them run down your spine. After all of that I believe I am a stronger person; it takes much more to get an emotional response out of me. Some say that is a bad thing, but I view it as a blessing due to it enabling me to maintain a level head in tough situations.
The worst anxiety attack I had was in school pretty early into the day. It was nearing the end of first semester for my senior year of high school. I was in English class and suddenly my stomach started turning and I couldn't breathe. It isn't uncommon for me to have issues with my respiratory system due to my asthma but I get embarrassed when I use my inhaler in front of other people, so I went to the restroom. I walked in and suddenly collapsed on the ground with tears racing out of my eyes. I had no idea why I was crying, but I was. I was angry. Angry at myself for feeling the way I did. Angry at the people who contributed to causing me to feel the way I did. Angry about everything. Now the issue is that when I become unreasonably angry - I cry. The emotions of anger, frustration, sadness, and the countless other feelings I was experiencing started to take control of my entire body. I tried to use my inhaler but to no avail, the medication did nothing to improve the situation. I sat in that bathroom against the wall for about 20 minutes before I was in a fair state of mind. I decided that I had to fix whatever was going wrong, and I didn't care how long it took. And I have finally fulfilled that promise to myself.
That day was December 3rd, 2013. It is now January 11th, 2015 and I have now recognized my situation as solved. My point is that I promise you it does get better. I know you might not be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel but know that it is there. Sometimes life tests you and pushes you to your breaking point.
Arise, arise
I believe that everything happens for a reason and even though things get bad it pays off to tough it out. Through fire comes steel. It's just a matter of lasting through the fire. Not long ago I was hit head on by several life changing events. Following these events I had various thoughts and opinions - these were not good thoughts and opinions. I suffered from anxiety attacks, lost most my friends, and hated myself. Many times I thought about calling it quits and succumbing to all the emotions flooding my mind. Emotions so strong that you could feel them run down your spine. After all of that I believe I am a stronger person; it takes much more to get an emotional response out of me. Some say that is a bad thing, but I view it as a blessing due to it enabling me to maintain a level head in tough situations.
The worst anxiety attack I had was in school pretty early into the day. It was nearing the end of first semester for my senior year of high school. I was in English class and suddenly my stomach started turning and I couldn't breathe. It isn't uncommon for me to have issues with my respiratory system due to my asthma but I get embarrassed when I use my inhaler in front of other people, so I went to the restroom. I walked in and suddenly collapsed on the ground with tears racing out of my eyes. I had no idea why I was crying, but I was. I was angry. Angry at myself for feeling the way I did. Angry at the people who contributed to causing me to feel the way I did. Angry about everything. Now the issue is that when I become unreasonably angry - I cry. The emotions of anger, frustration, sadness, and the countless other feelings I was experiencing started to take control of my entire body. I tried to use my inhaler but to no avail, the medication did nothing to improve the situation. I sat in that bathroom against the wall for about 20 minutes before I was in a fair state of mind. I decided that I had to fix whatever was going wrong, and I didn't care how long it took. And I have finally fulfilled that promise to myself.
That day was December 3rd, 2013. It is now January 11th, 2015 and I have now recognized my situation as solved. My point is that I promise you it does get better. I know you might not be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel but know that it is there. Sometimes life tests you and pushes you to your breaking point.
Arise, arise
The pain is endless.
Release the bellows and cries.
Is this a test?
How long can I make it?
I've failed after trying my best.
The candle is no longer lit.
The cold is all I can feel.
I shall never forget.
The solution has been hit.
I've made my deal.
Now I commit.
Through this fire comes steel.
No more toxic butterflies.
Through this fire comes steel.
Arise, arise.
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